Sunday, 16th October 2011, 11:13pm

Today...

Was my birthday...

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-Date of Birth-

Today, it was my birthday.... I am so happy that most of my friends greet and wish me happy birthday.... I'm so glad~

But... there's one thing and one problem which almost ruined my day...

It wasn't suppose to happen... but...

It happened... unexpectedly....

She asked me to break up with her...

It wasn't a good choice and easy to accept it...

Listen... ALL I WANT IS YOU IN MY LIFE !

YOU THOUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE IN A BETTER WAY !

YOU THOUGHT ME A LOTS OF THINGS THAT I WOULDN'T KNOW !

I HELPED ME AND SAVED ME FROM MY DARKNESS !

YOU CURED ME !

DO YOU KNOW HOW PAINFUL WAS IT TO SEE THAT SENTENCE "I WANT TO BE IN A NORMAL AND SINGLE LIFE AGAIN" ?!

Damn... I only wished for a happy day and happy time with all of my friend's and specially you...

Did you plan this earlier or what?!

If that's so... THEN WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME EARLIER !!!

You're already part of my life...

And now... you just kick me off and abandon me?!

This is so RIDICULOUS !

I don't want this to happen... and I don't want my old self to be back again anymore !

Do you know I cried for 2 hours after accepting it?!

I felt so regret accepting it you know?!

I talk to myself... my inner person....

He was backing me up...

Telling me stop crying...

It'll be fine...

Everything's alright...

There's still more person I can find other than you

But

YOU THINK I CAN ACCEPT THAT?!

Well... It's okay for me....

I'll just leave it the way and the fate orders it...

I will NEVER EVER FIND YOU AGAIN UNTIL YOU FIND ME AND SAY SORRY !!!

Sorry for the part of violence and unexpected emotion...

I get so sad after listening to my beloved girl saying that to me

Yes yes... I am FINE

My friends don't need to worry about me

I'm fine...

大丈夫！　私も　大丈夫だよ！

私も　本当に大丈夫だよね！

Thanks for today's outing

Best regards to

Al.. and Ad...

You two are really one of my best friend who's parted in my life now...

You both helped me stand up when I was not well...

Like today...

You might not know what happened or didn't noticed...

I was a bit late because I was talking to myself and cried overly....

あ。。。り。。。が。。。とう。。。　私も。。。友だち。。。

私は　ぜったいぜったい　あなたを忘れない