Thursday, 11th August 2011, 9:30pm

seriously things are getting more insane....

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-Pain and Burden-

i've been carrying the pain and the burden inside my heart for being used and toyed for like years non-stop...

i've been dominated by my emotion for like 3 days after i saw that thing

i cant control what i am doing

i just randomly scold people and write nonsense everywhere...

i am really a monster after all....

things like this keep coming to me

why?

tell me...

GOD is the main cause of this

i can't believe why GOD must treat me like this...

i didn't even curse YOU!

why you have to give me this kind of fate?!

im trying to break it forever

and it still come back and back and back until i go insane and chaos !

u want me to kill people only you're satisfied?!

what the hell?!

fine

out of this topic!

im not even in the mood to scold or whatever it is

thanks to my friends who are supporting me in their bottom of their heart

even you guys didn't realize

but i tell u the truth

you've been supporting me since we met!

thank you all...

but sadly i am afraid that you guys will just dump me when u all know who or what am i...

tell u something i think im no human but a monster?

yes

i AM a monster

i am not able to live like a human with a special ability and i can control nature for sometime?

whatever is it

dont get shocked with this and please stay by my side =(

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-Almost turn into a demon-

i almost gotten into a fight today

lucky i was able to control myself or else im gonna turn into a demon and fight there and died

i dont know if i will die or not since when i turn into a demon i am uncontrolable and over-violence...

i until now i still dont know what or who am i...

am i really a monster

or a normal human just with a special ability like others do?

i...

i don't know... i just want to live in a peaceful world

but why can;t i have it?!

damn... i really wanted to kill myself if i really a monster

i am not belong to this world!